Restlessness

A looming rice crisis...a slowdown in economic growth...a fucked up political system and a growing apathy among the people. These things are affecting one's nerves, myself included.

I am beginning to think of migration. Yes, going to another country to live. The increasing uncertainties might affect the future of my family and this is not a laughing matter. Like thousands of parents like me, these things add up to fears about what would happen in the future. The future is starting to be less favorable, especially to simpletons like me.

Some years ago, I left this country because I thought that the future is totally uncertain here. I found stability in Singapore. I would not have left that tiny island-state where it not for loneliness. Yes, I was lonely there because I don't have a family. Now that I found my spouse and kids, I am thinking of going to another country and stay there...permanently.

This is a beautiful country. Yet, it is being ruled by people whose sole intention is to rob other people's money just to survive. I hate the system. And it is beginning to become helpless.

Parents like me only want three things---a stable, high-paying and totally satisfying job, a nice house you can call your own and a car. That's it. I have those three things but some issues in the office are beginning to affect my nerves. You can say that I'm losing faith. And yesterday, I begun doing things to protect my family in case I risk everything again.

I am a risk-taker, a calculated one at that. It would be good if the situation improves a little bit, just to renew hopes within us. Without hope, this will all be lost. And we are totally losing hope.